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Wanting to end the decade on a positive note...




I’ll start off by introducing myself to you. My name is Ariel, I’m in my 30’s and live in the beautiful Evergreen state! I’m extremely lucky to be happily married to my best friend. We’re currently working on starting a family, which now we’re staying hopeful that it will happen soon. It’s been a bumpy road so far … but we’ll get more into that later. We just bought our first home and we couldn’t be happier. Everything is slowly starting to fall into place the way I’ve always wanted it to. It hasn’t always been on my time but that’s how life works.

Trust me it hasn’t been an easy road that got me here to this moment. For as many ups as I’ve had, I’ve also had to deal with twice as many lows. Everyone has a past of some sort. Some of us might be proud of our past but some of us have many regrets and failures we live with. I remind myself that as much as I wish I could forget those lows in my life, I’ve also learned a TON from it all. My experiences good and bad have helped shape me into the woman I am today. I’m not perfect but no one is in life. All we can do is try to make the right choices and treat others with kindness.

I’m usually a private person. I like to keep to myself but it’s also partly because I experience social anxiety. I have a hard time opening to people since I constantly have a fear of others judging me. Most of the time they probably aren’t but it’s an irrational fear I live with; as silly as it may sound to others. For as long as I can remember I was always a shy timid child and even dealt with anxiety back then. Anxiety is definitely a difficult thing to live with daily. For anyone out there dealing with anxiety right now just know you are NOT alone!!

That was one of the reasons I always wanted to start a blog, to hopefully learn to open up more. I’ve dealt with things in life and currently going through things with fertility that someone might be able to relate to. It might just help someone see that they aren’t alone. More importantly it might just help me see that I can be open and put myself out there to help me get past those fears! Yes, there is always going to be people in the world that won’t agree with or like what you have to say. Not everyone is going to judge you that same way though. I’m hoping that with sharing about things in life and any advice I might have, it can be a way of therapy to help me as well.

2019 is coming to an end… even crazier to think a whole decade is coming to an end. As I go into 2020, I want to be able to have a new approach on how to handle tough situations that I want to say “may” come up. Let’s be real… we all know they WILL come up! We all need to remind ourselves in those situations that there are people out there that care and want to help us or give advice when they can. I must constantly remind myself that and I still have a hard time doing it. But this will be my space to share and put it all out there. The highs and the lows to come. I’ll try my best to just share everyday stuff, the stuff I love and the stuff that means the most to me. I hope that you enjoy sharing this journey with me and we might both gain something from it as well.






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Love Always,

Ariel

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