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The day that changed my life

December 22, 2016 marks a very significant day in my life. A day I honestly will never forget. It’s the day I went to detox before I was able to enter my treatment center right after. That was probably one of the hardest days I’ve ever faced, and it still brings up certain emotions whenever I think back to it. Knowing I was about to be leaving for over a month and taking the step to change my life was scary! I was devastated knowing I wouldn’t be spending Christmas with my family, but I knew it was something that I absolutely had to do. This is a huge step for me because I don’t usually talk openly about my experience of going to rehab. Lately it’s been easier for me to do though because it’s a huge part of my life story and I wouldn’t be living the life I have today if it wasn’t for taking that step. If my story can help one person out there struggling, then it’s MORE than worth it to me!
Christmas is always a special time and one of my favorite holidays. It hasn’t quite been the same…

Infertility Struggles During The Holidays

Have you ever wanted something so badly but it’s out of your control? That’s how I’ve been feeling during this trying to conceive journey. There is only so much that I can control, even though I wish I could control it all on my own. It’s been a big struggle for me lately and has really taken a toll on my mental health. Some days I feel like it’s never going to happen for us and then other days I feel completely positive that it’s all going to work out. Lately I feel like I’m stuck in a rut and I’m not entirely sure how to get out of it.
It’s been especially hard around the holidays this year for a few reasons. One being you must see family that want you to have kids just as bad as you do. So of course, they want to ask, “when do you plan on starting a family” or “any updates yet?” As the months go by those questions get harder and harder to answer. Every time it gets asked all I want to do is breakdown because it’s something I want so badly but I can only do so much. It’s a reminder t…

Why we decided on a Vasectomy Reversal

This past summer my husband and I had finally saved up enough money for the vasectomy reversal we had been planning for. The cost of vasectomy reversals isn’t cheap by any means, but it was extremely important for us. It took us many years, but I can finally say we got there!
Now I will say there is some pros and cons to us choosing the vasectomy reversal compared to what our other options would be. When we started looking into our options for the reversal, we came across Seattle Reproductive Medicine. If any of you live in Washington State and are looking for a great reproductive doctor, I would recommend them. They provide every type of option to help you along the way. So far, I’m happy that we chose them on helping us start a family.

As I said before there is pros and cons…

The pros are that we’ll be able to try to conceive on our own. That was something we really wanted to be able to try first before other options. Another Pro is that we were able to save and freeze some sperm as a …

I dont want kids.... Or so i thought....

Most girls growing up can’t wait to get older, have babies and start a family. I guess I’m not most girls because that was just something, I never longed for growing up or even as a young adult in my 20s. I always knew and would say... I don't want kids. It wasn’t until I was about to hit 30 that I finally got serious about wanting a baby of my own. Of course, it all hit me at once and now it’s all I want! I know my time will come though at just the time I need it.
I’m sure there is MANY factors into why I never felt the urge to have kids but here are some that come to mind

Raising a tiny human is a scary thought. They rely on you for everything and to keep them alive. My biggest fear is that I’m going to do something wrong and not know how to fix it!

I worked at a preschool for 10 years. It’s not that I don’t like kids because I love kids! I think they’re so cute and hilarious. I just know how much work they can be and how difficult it can get at times. Working at a preschool for th…

Husband's Vasectomy at 23

Have you ever decided something in your younger years that you later regret once you’re older? I’m sure we’ve all been there and can relate. I know I have a ton of decisions that my young self made, that I now wish I could take back. Well my husband made a BIG decision in his young mind that we BOTH wish he could take back. Here we are though trying to fix that past decision. At the young age of 23 my husband wasn’t making the best choices just like a lot of young men don’t. He didn’t think about responsibilities of his actions and decided that he knew for sure he did NOT want kids. He then came to the decision to get a vasectomy. Any doctor that’s in their right mind will not let a 23-year-old make this sort of choice. Somehow, some way though this doctor finally agreed to do the procedure. Fast forward 9 years and his mind was starting to change about his decision to not have kids. Everyone always warned him he was going to feel differently once he was older and wiser. Of course, yo…

Wanting to end the decade on a positive note...

I’ll start off by introducing myself to you. My name is Ariel, I’m in my 30’s and live in the beautiful Evergreen state! I’m extremely lucky to be happily married to my best friend. We’re currently working on starting a family, which now we’re staying hopeful that it will happen soon. It’s been a bumpy road so far … but we’ll get more into that later. We just bought our first home and we couldn’t be happier. Everything is slowly starting to fall into place the way I’ve always wanted it to. It hasn’t always been on my time but that’s how life works.
Trust me it hasn’t been an easy road that got me here to this moment. For as many ups as I’ve had, I’ve also had to deal with twice as many lows. Everyone has a past of some sort. Some of us might be proud of our past but some of us have many regrets and failures we live with. I remind myself that as much as I wish I could forget those lows in my life, I’ve also learned a TON from it all. My experiences good and bad have helped shape me into…